Friday, October 26, 2007
10:32 pm
I hate the feeling of writing something and then getting stuck halfway, and then you go back to re-read and suddenly you just detest everything that you have ever written and you just feel like deleting everything. Only you can't, because it takes so much time to write things over again. I'm such a freaking perfectionist it freaks myself out also, and I don't feel up to writing the lousy essay :/ No inspiration la, gahhh. It looks like some lousy typical essay.
We're still so busy even after everything. There's commonwealth, ASEAN conference, tea tiffin poetry, chinese Os, holiday homework, cca camp, cca fair and after all this is over school starts again. Holidays are just a holiday from school lessons, but that doesn't mean that other things still do not carry on. There won't ever be a day when you can just sit down, shake leg and stare into space even though we keep on looking forward to it. And when you finally find that you have nothing to stress out about, you complain that you're bored. Life sucks, cos happiness is only bloody temporary ):
I'm not in a very good mood. Gahhh. I don't know why either. Dropped by cca (okay, stayed for the whole session) after chinese lesson today
out of free will and did some cca fair stuff, and later on we just hung around and talked and stuff, which was fun. It's the last official cca of the year, and honestly if people want to sing, sing with some more passion and enthusiasm instead of just pretending. It makes me feel so not good when I realise that singing the huige fails to make everyone happy. If there's no more passion then there will be no more huahui. I don't want to stay and see that happening.
I'm going to do chinese tomorrow, then research, then write essay. If the essay doesn't work out I guess I'll just do some other topic, or email both. The weekend's so shortttt. I need chocolate desperately ): Sugar will make me high.
Yunnie get well soon, take care of yourself and everyone's so worried about you. Don't try and take any responsiblity for an accident which could have happened to anyone. It's going to be alright, and they better make sure to give you time to properly get well and rest well.
<3
