Sometimes you stay up late at night, listening to the silence, staring blankly at a fluorescent screen before you and indulging listlessly in an inane succession of random virtual activity. Sometimes you make decisions you hope you don't regret. Sometimes you are scared, worried and on edge. Most of the time you end up thinking about things and people and being more and more confused by life and people in general. You examine your dreams and idealism and all the things you have believed will come true and you realise that sometimes you are sorely disappointed. Sometimes you tell yourself that soulmates exist but other times you feel like you will be perpetually closeted and isolated. You are muffled and you can't verbalise your thoughts; either in words or on papers. You are scared to grow up because people expect you to have accomplished something by a certain stage and when you don't its a failure, at least in their eyes. Sometimes you are just a small child. Sometimes you are just a dream. Sometimes you are me.